Passion?

I'm struggling with passion for my life. I look around me and see so many people full of vision and excitement for the future and what it holds. They have dreams and goals and stuff they are passionate about. I feel bankrupt when it comes to this. I don't know what I'm passionate about. I don't know what sort of purpose my life will fulfill. I'm a single woman living in a small big town feeling a lot of pressure to pursue success and adventure. My life is supposed to be full of dreams and meaning. But its not. I work a job that I don't enjoy--in reality probably causes more harm for me than I do good for it... I live with four women who are on their way to things bigger--this is only a transitional time of life for them. I don't relate. What I dream about is security and consistency in relationships. I dream about being a wife and a mom and taking care of a home and a yard. Cooking meals and throwing parties. I dream of being involved in my family's community and helping my church. I want to go on family vacations and create traditions. I want to be excited about holidays and not fear a fight or wounds from the family I'm with. I have vision for a me that feels free to be all of me all the time every day with the safest of people--my own family, and to impact the world through my commitment, passion, and desire to love my husband and my children in a way I never experienced growing up.
I guess what I dream of feels small in comparison to those around me... and maybe even misunderstood. What I didn't experience in childhood is what I long for. My problem comes in that I don't feel like I can pursue that dream. It's a passion I have to wait on God to provide for me... one I am not even sure He will ever lead me to. So I am stuck wondering, "What do I do?" I pray for passion for more than those things... and passion for where I am now.